Entry #1 - Unlucky

I used to think that I'm always unlucky.

I'm consistently at a disadvantage position as a result of unfortunate circumstances.

Ironically, I almost thought that I was a spin-off from the show, "A Series of Unfortunate Events".

I became a pessimist and unconfident of my own outlook,

As I devour myself from additional protective layers.

It is almost as relatable as Jasper Jordan from The 100 Season 4.

A bleak future and consistently getting tired of my own imp's tale.

I prayed to have the confidence of Tina Belcher,

"I am a smart, strong, sensual woman,"

(This is not just a quote or just a mere representation of each word means in the dictionary,

But rather a hindsight.

Tina could be or is an underrated philosopher.)

After much reciting of that quote,

I figured that no matter how many protective layers that I have added,

And no matter how heighten my security level of being cautious,

I would always feel like a piece of Turd.

Or diarrhoea to be exact,

Because the urgency to resolve adds onto my anxiety and preferably not to take a crap in my undies.

One thing in common of my error is due to my way of thinking.

The way I think makes me feel a certain way.

I emphasise a lot on,

"There's no failures just lesson learnt."

Which makes me realised that I am blessed to face such issues because,

that's where I can gain experience from.

With the experiences gained from being "unlucky",

I get to gain invaluable lessons.

These lessons thought me to be street smart,

avoid situations before it becomes a problem.

If can't avoid,

Use past experiences to come up with the best solution.

If the best solution doesn't work out,

it isn't the end. Why?

Because I have found a way out of many that doesn't work

(Albert Einstein is correct).

Life is all about trial and error...

But first,

I need to twitch the way how I treat each situation.

No doubt,

I still grumble a little now and then to let off some steam,

But gradually I still move on.

Count it as a blessing...

P.S. The amount of attempts I recited Tina Belcher's quote finally gets my brain to function...

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